it's hard..to many tension happens in my life for the past few days..
- hausmate on the rawkx!
- break-up
- gado2 ngn bf meke2 :(
- test secara pakse rela!
- presentation belambak2!
before tgk mvee..ttb efa ckp :
"yah.kau jgn laa asek gado2 je ngn fik.jgn jd cam ak tau yah :) "
aku pon cam pleik jap.tp of course laa ak pon ad alibi nk bg kat die kn..
apeagi ktoerg layan mvee best! :)
then last nyte sumthyng bad happen..
i was crying my heart out in silence..
a few tears dropped down my face..
dis morning..i felt empty..
looking back..i think it's all my mistake..
maybe i was hopelessly wanting him to stay, i let him walk all over my heart.
i spoiled him too much.
i give him wat he want.
i really dont wanna hurt him, i just follow wat he said.
i really dont want him to be alone, i just follow where he wanna go even if i'm sick.
i really want him to achieve, i always be there with him.
i really want him to be happy, i give him whatever he wants.
i really want him to be cheerful, i'll stand by his side even when i have other things to do in mind.
i really want him not to be sad, i pass on things that i crave for!
i really want him to be happy with his friend, i dont mind to sit alone at the house with just my lappy with me.
i really want him to be extravagant, i let him take all the credit he wants.
i really want him to feel good, i let my ego down
i've done all those things for him and others dat i don't mentioned.but i'm to busy keeping him on the positive side.i pushed myself to be on the negative brink.
it's not that i wanna brag on my love life now but i don't know where else to go to..
pls babe.if u read dis.pls understand what i'm feeling.i cant take this anymore.
i dont know how i can mend my heart again..
maybe by now it's already full with stitches across and over it..
