kelmarin!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010 - written by the Queen, iera marhe
since these few days mcm obsessed jer ngn lagu kelmarin..yang farhan nyanyi 2.. ngehee :)
lirik die tak mcm catchy pulak kan! hahaha~~

Kelmarin ku tanya apakah salahku?
Dan jawabnya diam saja
Kelmarin ku tanya apakah kau rindu?
Dan jawabnya hanyalah pandangan hampa

Ku kira ada yang keliru
Sampai tak ada cara mengungkapkannya

Aku tak apa
Yang ringan saja

Kelmarin ku tanya apakah kau rindu?
Dan jawabnya hanyalah pandangan hampa
Dan kelmarin ku lihat gambar bekas pacarmu
Terpasang lagi jadi lukisan
Eh terserah kalau masalahnya cuma itu
Simpan saja buat arkibmu sendiri

Aku tak apa
Yang ringan saja

Jika begini jalan akhirnya
Tak perlu lagi aku berada
Jika begini namanya cinta
Biar ku cari yang lain saja

:))

almost to the end :)

Monday, April 12, 2010 - written by the Queen, iera marhe
da nk abes sem ni mcm2 pulak yang jadi,,,
tak masuk ngn assginment yang bertimbon2...
rumah plak asek faulty jer..
grrr!! geram..
tapi tableyh nk salahkn sape2 kan cz bukan ade org pon yang nk jadi mcm ni..
thus..
utk penghuni blok 4 (saya mmg tahu anda takkan bace nie sume!) saya mintak maaf yer bagi pihak 410 sebab abes rumah pakiciks and makciks basah2 gitu :)
well..
assignment sgt banyak..
masa tido sgt kurang..
:D

bby :)
i mss u :D

do i?

Sunday, April 4, 2010 - written by the Queen, iera marhe
Remind me of my last and past memories :)

"Do I Have To Cry For You"


Don't wanna close the door,
Don't wanna give up on it
Don't wanna fight no more,
We'll find a way around it,
Where's the love we had?...
We can make it last

Tell me what I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?

So tell me what it's for,
If there's no winner in it?
Nobody's keeping score,
Let's start from the beginning
Can we make it last
Where’s the love we had

Tell me what I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?

Do I gotta stand in the cold dark night
Till the morning light, yeah
Do I have to say
I won't let you get away

What do I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Yeah

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh no
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?

feels so much better :)

Monday, March 8, 2010 - written by the Queen, iera marhe
today feel so much better perhaps :) met ira and dydy really make my day :)
things are half resolve :)
alhamdulillah..after a few days drowning in tears. finally i'm kinda ok..
start to talk around with others. but i still feel it itsy bitsy bit in the heart.maybe i can't totally shake it off but i promise i will try very to shake it off :(
tired of feeling this..

don't speak :(

Sunday, March 7, 2010 - written by the Queen, iera marhe
i don't know..i can't really speak up today.it feels as my mouth can't be open to say anything.i only say things that will be important.i don't really know why.how could dis happen.for once i'm very talkative aight?
to many things happen in one night and i've been bombards with many statements and stuff.still stucked in the middle.it hurts so bad.been crying every minute of life nowadays.i wonder why dis happen to me?
do i have any wrong doings? if i do please forgive me people.cant take it anymore.siyesly.omg.really need to get out of this mess! but i don't know how?
should i say sorry? should i just ignore? should i do almost anything to get my life back?
why dont life have reset button?
can i have a reset button please?
please3! can't take it anymore!

hmm :(

Thursday, March 4, 2010 - written by the Queen, iera marhe
i'm not able to smile since last nite..btw. da lame gak en ta update blog nie!
it's hard..to many tension happens in my life for the past few days..
  • hausmate on the rawkx!
  • break-up
  • gado2 ngn bf meke2 :(
  • test secara pakse rela!
  • presentation belambak2!
so u see..thursday is a free day..so me and efa was on an movee escapade weddy evening.. 3 muvee kiteorg tgk..gasak sgt laa tu.. :p
before tgk mvee..ttb efa ckp :

"yah.kau jgn laa asek gado2 je ngn fik.jgn jd cam ak tau yah :) "

aku pon cam pleik jap.tp of course laa ak pon ad alibi nk bg kat die kn..
apeagi ktoerg layan mvee best! :)
then last nyte sumthyng bad happen..
i was crying my heart out in silence..
a few tears dropped down my face..

dis morning..i felt empty..
looking back..i think it's all my mistake..
maybe i was hopelessly wanting him to stay, i let him walk all over my heart.
i spoiled him too much.
i give him wat he want.
i really dont wanna hurt him, i just follow wat he said.
i really dont want him to be alone, i just follow where he wanna go even if i'm sick.
i really want him to achieve, i always be there with him.
i really want him to be happy, i give him whatever he wants.
i really want him to be cheerful, i'll stand by his side even when i have other things to do in mind.
i really want him not to be sad, i pass on things that i crave for!
i really want him to be happy with his friend, i dont mind to sit alone at the house with just my lappy with me.
i really want him to be extravagant, i let him take all the credit he wants.
i really want him to feel good, i let my ego down

i've done all those things for him and others dat i don't mentioned.but i'm to busy keeping him on the positive side.i pushed myself to be on the negative brink.
it's not that i wanna brag on my love life now but i don't know where else to go to..
pls babe.if u read dis.pls understand what i'm feeling.i cant take this anymore.
i dont know how i can mend my heart again..
maybe by now it's already full with stitches across and over it..

i can have another you in a minute :)

Monday, January 25, 2010 - written by the Queen, iera marhe
friends?
what exactly does dis means to u?
someone to hold on to when you're down?
someone you can look up to when you're down?
someone u can surrender in their arms and just let the tears flow until it went dry?
what exactly friends means to u?
i've mingled kinda a lot..
i get most of the negative vibe all around me..
so what?
people say not everything is good..
but when it comes to me not everything is bad as its surrounding.
i've got kinda a lot of fwens..
but do they stick up to me?
they do..
some of them..
thnx for those who stick it up..
i love u guys by my hearts..
why is it hearts?
it's been broken down to pieces.
get the idea..

dear certain friends,
from the bottom of my heart, i would like to apologize for my own behavior.i understand where i stand and my position.if i ever break your heart i know i can't undo that by unbreaking it.there's always a reason why i did some stuff that u hate or make u feel pissed and for making u live ur life miserably.i did the things i've done because of i cant stand it much longer.i know i always put myself aside and fulfill ur wishes but this time i cant fulfill it anymore.i'm sick of being a stand-in.i'm sick of being next to u onli when u need me.i cant shake the fact that i hate u!

dear other certain friends :)
from the bottom of my ass u can go to hell as u go down with urself :)

sincerely,
:)

rumah baru?

Wednesday, January 20, 2010 - written by the Queen, iera marhe
hullaaaa...
lame en ta update..hahah..bukan ad org bace pon! :p
well...
ieraa da pindah ruma baru..
ruma nye flat aje..
kat bawah manyak tikus ouh!!
:p
so far so bad..!!
byk yg rosak2...
cz uma da lame tinggal en..
so byk laa yg defect nye..
anyway..
ecimen da belambak2 just tinggal nk ciapkn je..
hence (amboi!) saya kinda busy lorh..

hari tu jumpe myiesha syg..
ouh! chumeyl nye~~
:( rindu myiesha dah..
bile auntie dpt jumpe myiesha nie :((

anyway..
bby ku syg,..
happy becoming besday..
ailebiu!!
:D